thanks PS, I think it's on of "those days" HEY no! wait, its dear aunt flo, (PMS for any guy reading this) no wonder my moods are up n down!!!
Started thinking about v-day, how they went on a cruise, how he took off those days, all that crap, RRRHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
Things hitting me anew like a ton of bricks. Had a mini cry, feel a bit better, I know that stuff is old and just plain useless at this point, H called and sensed I was stressed, I told him why, and a few things (can't believe you xyz kind of thing) He called back later after getting off before I got too carried away, and apologized, said a few things.
Guess the poison has to come out of my system now and then, there is prob quiet a few there after all the crap that happened these past few weeks. Was thinking of what ow said about certain things and realizing i'm stupid for believing whatever she said, I'll never know what was true what wasnt and yes, I shouldnt' care at this point, it was all a big web of lies.
SIGH, ok, meltdown slowing down, slowing down...
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
