OC: I'm really looking forward to the trip, but also fear I will have too much fun and not want to come back to reality! I'm hoping the stress and insomnia I'm feeling now will make me shed the few pounds I've recently put on. Haha.
peace: I'm considering asking H to send us. I think he likes to feel useful and needed, but then again, if he really wanted to do it, I think he would have offered by now. I'm going to email him tomorrow to thank him for something (I told him I'd pay him back for something - he told me not to worry about it). Maybe I'll ask him then. He didn't send or pick us up on our last trip, which was over a year ago (and we were gone for almost 2 months). I'll be so disappointed if he arranges for someone else to bring us - that's what's stopping me from asking.
Feeling a little desperate today - like I need a sign - ANYTHING that will give me some hope. I'm at the end of my rope. Instead, I have a friend asking me what century I'm living in and telling me that it's perfectly acceptable to date and even sleep with others while separated. NOT what I needed to hear.
