It was too good to be true. H's coping. Yesterday I stopped at a shopping center near the house. I was at the checkout paying when I looked out the front window across the parking lot....and who was in his car..H. He didn't see me, but as he pulled away I waived to him.
I knew he had counseling before I saw him and he looked as if he had been crying. He said he was in his car just gathering his thoughts. D12 was at softball practice so we talked for a few minutes.
H was really down. Said he has a 2nd interview for a "real job that everyone wants him to get" and was torn because he loves his bartending gig. I told him I hopes he does what makes him happy and he implied that I too wanted him to get a real job. I said again that I want him to be happy and he said everyone wants him to get a real job, his parents, the kids.....I am sure MOW.
I just dropped it. He came by the house for a little while after d12 came home. He hung out for a bit, dozed off and then left. Must have been an emotional session with the C. Whatever. I am sure when God is ready I will know. I am trying not to speculate or even think about it....
Anyway, the kids birthdays are coming up. S15 on the 10th and d12 on the 16th. Should keep me pretty busy. I just want them to enjoy their special days. S15 is having his friends over this weekend and d12 is having a party next weekend. I am happy I can do this for them. My life no longer revolves around this crisis it only revolves around them.
