Well my H finally came over around 1:30 on sunday. He came in and asked me if I remember any of the fight we had the night before because he didn't remember it that morning when we made love since he was so drunk on friday night.
I said yes I remember it and I am sorry I was so mad and angry, but I would still like to work on our M but it doesn't seem like a healthy way to start of a reconciliation with him drinking so much and going to the bars everynight.
He said I have always known he is an alcoholic (which is not true, this is only a thing he has struggeled with for the last 3 years since he went in debt) and that is not going to change and that he likes his new lifestyle and new friends and hanging at the bars. He said he just doesn't want to change it and that I cant accept him for who he has become and that I am living in the past. He said he's done faking it and we have to be adults and face the fact that our Divorce is inevitable.
On his way out, he actually asked me if he could grab his beer out of my fridge and he had such a childish grin on his face while going to get it. He then gave me a hug on his way out and I gave him a kiss on his neck while we embraced. As he was walking out the door he said he hopes we can still be friends. I said yes as one tear dropped down my face.
After he left I just lost it and cryed so hard. This was the 3rd bomb I have been through in less than a year and he has become a full blown alcoholic - it is so hard and sad to watch what he is doing to himself and us. TIPPER
