It is time for me to leave for work, but I will think more about what you and DomR has had to say. Sometimes, I don't know how to answer Dom.
I can understand how frustrated you probably got with me a lot of times. I would get frustrated with myself for not having what I needed to "step it up". I came to Piecing, not b/c so much had changed, but b/c I don't think I need to be in the Sex Starved forum anymore. Everyone has said all they know to say and besides, I am not sure that we will ever have that part of married life anymore. However, if we can learn to be close and happy together, then I need to try to make the best of that. I know that is not what you want to hear, but for now.....for now...I will have to work on that. I have not been "working" as you could tell, but I was just trying to reach a point that I could work. When you feel empty of everything, then you just try to survive to get from day to day. I don't mean to use my health as my excuse for not "working" at the M, but it has effected my job, my church life, my family life, and of course my M life. I am still dealing with a lot of depression and the doctor is still changing around my medicine, which takes a toll on this body of mine. By taking a toll, I mean to the point that I can't even cook dinner for my H at the end of the day. If I go to work, then when I come home I crash. Sometimes, I crash in front of the computer reading the DB Board b/c it helps me to relax and forget about my job.
Anyway, that probably all sounds like a bunch of excuses. When I came over here to Piecing, it was with the intentions of going to work piecing. I did not feel like that was happening in the SSF b/c everything was focused on sex. I want to focus on the other areas of our R and if the sex happens....great, but I feel that my H can no longer perform sexually. Perhaps I will find out.....?
I will have to continue this later. Have to leave for work. Thanks for talking to me. Didn't know you cared....lol.
Sandi
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
