I know excatly where you are coming from. What type of C were the ones that you saw? I go to a cognetive behavioural therapist - he is also a clinical psychologist - and he has helped me loads. Try seeing that type of therapist / C and see how you go. Mine has helped me alter the way I view things and approach my H etc - I can't speak highly enough about it. Having said that he is a good therapist as well and that makes as much difference I believe as the 'type' of therapy you have.
you have taken the biggest step by opening up to your H - well done.
Saffie me 46 H 46 M in 1986 D20,D18,S16,D13 H's A 01/05 to 07/06 H recommitted to M 07/06 renewed vows 09/06 Going from strength to strength