Help...feel frustrated, helpless and sad! WAW/?MLC

[bombardier50]

Hi Purr,
So the struggle continues. I'm right there with you.

One little thing to consider: maybe try not to put much emotional weight on her contacts with you.

"Recovered" MLCers will tell you that they felt enormous guilt and pain about the hurt they caused, and one of the ways they dealt with it would be to do these little random acts of kindness. By being nice to you now and then, they could tell themselves that despite the hurt they're causing, they're still a good person.

Like MWD says, keep doing what works, etc. But just try not to get your hopes up every time she initiates contact, otherwise, the rollercoaster ride intensifies.

By the way, I know it feels weird and scary doing stuff alone. I went to a bar the other night while W was at work. I wasn't trying to hook up or get loaded, I just had a craving for a Guinness and this particular bar has it on tap. So...what the heck?...I thought. It did feel funny, but after a pint, I relaxed. Just another guy in the bar watchin' the UConn game...

Anyway, I think you're doing great. Hang in there...