Meredith..your 5 years continuned.

[cagzmom]

Funny imp.

Changes. I have changed in ways that I think are for the better. Physically - I made a descion IMMEDIATELY that he would NEVER and I mean it - never see me looking, frumpy again..NEVER -it was for me 100%!! In the beginning, before he left after the BOMB he started playing poker on monday nights (or more) and I showed up --- nice as could be - dressed still in my work clothes (it was winter so it worked well) and makeup hair etc. done (mind you this was usually 11 pm or later.) I DID IT FOR ME!!!

Other changes have been things like:
Not asking loaded questions (i did't realize how often I could back people into a corner and not give them an out.)
Not letting anger rule me
My anxiety is gone (funny - as i have said before the manipulator went away and now I have no anxiety)
Taking pride in ME - who I am (this one is a work in progress)

Even just going to counseling. I have gone every week since December 06 bomb. AND it is helping me. I had issues- don't get me wrong. WE ALL do. I had the daddy is best syndrome and the don't leave me syndrome. All of htem. And I am sure that living with that pressure was not easy. BUT IF HE WOULD HAVE JUST OPENNED his freakin' mouth!!! Oh well...not going there.

And thank you for understanding the trailer... =)