We did sit down and talk, and it was a hard go, I just let alot spill out, but h was really good and let me talk, didn't get angry or upset. I said at the beginning, that we need to sit and do this more, because when we don't and it goes on for along time with no talk then my mind takes me to bad places, and it just brings me down. I also said that I am still working through alot of thinngs, and I feel very alone in doing that, and I don't know what would be the best to get me through this. I told him that alot of what I am trying to work through is to do with what happened with us, and that he know this is the big issue that has still to be discussed, you brought that up at a core meeting a few weeks ago. I told him I don't know if talking about this will help, I do have questions still, but don't know if I want the answers or not, I am floundering on how to work through this. I have gone to C a couple of time with different C and each time it didn't help, they both basically told me what I was feeling was normal, and that was it, but what I needed was someone who could give me coping skills, tools to work through it all. And so now I find that I am just not coping at all, and I seem to be reverting back to how I was when this was all fresh!
Thanks for letting me ramble!!
Me - 44 H - 44 M - 19yrs together - 23yrs D16 S8 EA/PA - Bomb Oct20/06 Jan 8/07 Feb 01/07 Jul 15/07 H still @ home Recovered!
