Sounds like a rough sitch. I can't believe how hard it must be trying to handle the swings in mood. I know that you're working hard to detach, but it must hurt and be really confusing too. Good for you for not getting hooked in to those invitations to clash. I'm glad you were able to have a small piece of relief and enjoyment in seeing your kids this weekend. Sounds like they are very special to you, particularly in going through this tough time.