I got back from my DivorceCare group this evening to find that W had sent me an email out of the blue. We haven't sent anything to each other in at least a month. Unfortunately, it was odd and not very positive at all. Here's the text:
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Guilt & shame are acid.... Acid is not attractive or restorative, only bitter.... I'm sorry....I never dreamed our marriage could disintegrate....but it did. That disintegration had nothing to do with any 3rd person as you wrongly believe. If our marriage was a garden it succumbed to a drought. I see no hint of green in it. I only see you continuing to pour acid on it. I'm just done with it & migrating to a totally different climate. I'm so sorry....
I was dumbfounded by what could have possibly illicited this message. Since I talked to her over a week ago about my knowing all about the depths of her infidelity, I have said nothing else, and all our few conversations since then were strictly on the kids and our house. Why now did this spring forth?
I sent a response to merely ask what brought this on all of a sudden (don't expect a reply until tomorrow at the earliest.)
My W is strange enough to read when I was fully in tune with her -- since the bomb, however, she's been exceptionally difficult to understand. She must be melding too much with the OM or something, cause I feel like she just included me in line of conversation with someone else. Is it only now she's realizing that I am really no longer in the dark? Is she cracking up?
Okay, I know -- quite trying to understand the insane mind of an infidel.
