Meredith..your 5 years continuned.

[cagzmom]

i feel the push and it is gentle and ok - ok biatch!!??

so glad to know I am among the elite!! =)

dont know how many of the sessions i will be able to go to...being single parent - and other people have a life- well it makes it a bit difficult to find someone to be with d11.

i called 4 peeps tonight. One gal has a life (senior in high school) another mom - has a life - 2 gals with softball. another mom can do every other - has a life but mine works in. ha! and lastly my closest friend doesn't feel safe with her 13 year old duaghter at my apartment to babysit...needless to say i feel like i am "living in a trailer down by the river..." (chris farley saturday night live..my sister and i use it as our term when we feel very very hmmm lowly.)

Needless to say that didn't help the ole' self esteem. I know her heart - but good grief!! I think one GREAT thing about going through this is i have realized just how terrible I HAVE made people feel in life and WOW what a B** I could be. Dont want to do that anymore!!!!! AND I WONT!! THAT WILL BE CHANGE #4440400444000 among the other billion that have happened to me in the past year!

GOOD GRIEF! HOW MUCH CHANGE can one person take. Oy oy oy...