I feel better today...it helped to just vent in the journalling and get a good sleep in. W. emailed me today saying she woke up in the night wondering how a work situation went for me. I wrote her back about it and a couple of minor things and then she called me (!!). This would be another phone call--one on Friday and then today at work. Again, a semi-legit reason to call, but it was somewhat less driven by a particular purpose and more like some of the "check in" kind of calls we regularly used to do with each other. This felt good, though it's still weird sometimes re: what to talk about and especially what to NOT talk about (ie. R)!!
Anyway, that's a good thing she called me and it went pretty well. She leaves on her trip on Wednesday, back Sunday, MC monday. I miss her, but hate how much she is loading on herself re: work. It's crazy how much she's working right now. If things ever work out between us, I can't see how that can be sustained in our relationship.
Anyway, I'm going to take this as a positive baby step!
