Overwhelmed with uncertainty

[GoingForward]

Thanks, Karen! I believe this decision was the best one to make at this point.

Do you feel happy about this b/c it sounds like it was a good decision?

I would say I am comfortable with this decision. I am happy that I'm giving my children as well as my M another chance, but I'm still wary of the sitch.


Little update:

I went to the courthouse earlier today to request the continuance, but unfortunately, since I have an ATTY already, they told me I would have to have him handle it tomorrow (I don't need to be there). Figures. Guess I could've just fired him, but then again, if H and I do end up going to court in 8 weeks, I will need the ATTY's services. He's already got the retainer, and if I had to hire a new ATTY, that would mean more money to dish out. Definitely want to avoid that!

I also sent this e-mail to my 3 sisters and my mother:

Good morning!

After much thought, I've decided to ask for a continuance. I want to be absolutely certain that I have given my marriage, as well as my boys, every possible chance for success. My reality, my belief is that divorce is not to be taken lightly. It is not that simple to just turn the other way and end it. If I didn't have children, then it might be different, but that's not the case here. They deserve every chance possible to have normalcy in their lives; the kind that comes from an intact, loving family. The kind their mother and father should and can provide for them together.

A continuance will give (H) approx. 8 weeks to SHOW me that he truly wants this marriage and to be back with his family. I can handle 8 weeks. It's better than completely taking the divorce off-calendar and having to wait another 4 to 6 months for another court date if things don't work out the way (H) assures me they will.

I'm sorry if anyone doesn't agree with this, but it is my life, my marriage, my boys.

I love you all and everything you do for me.

Each one of my sisters e-mailed me back sending their love and support. They respect my decision, and my oldest sister said she admired how strong I am and how well I've handled everything, despite other's opinions. I believe she was referring to our mom.

My mom e-mailed back with, "So, when is (H) moving back in then?"

I e-mailed her back and said, "Let me worry about that, Mom."



I have to pick up my boys now. Thanks again, Karen! Hope everyone's having a great day!