Wow, where to start, it has been a very interesting week+ since I posted.

Sunday a week ago, my son lost his job.. I went up to where he is living, w was already up there.. We got things settled down for him and the next morning w and I went out to breakfast, had a great time we talked for nearly an hour after breakfast and it was good.

Went back to son's apartment on the walk back I started having chest pains, so w took me to the emergency room. After many tests it was determined that I had a problem not with my heart but with my rib cartlidge and that was what was causing the pain. w stayed with me most of the time and she was great.

Next morning things blow up at her work, bosses are starting to ask alot of questions and she has no answers. She calls, I go over and we talk for a long time, she then calls her doctor and goes out on stress leave. We spent alot of time together during those days and we got along really well, I didn't put any pressure on her and just let her lead the way.

She started talking about getting back together and what she thought we needed to fix. I listened and talked with her and didn't argue. She then went back to the town where her grandmother is and went to stay with her, grandmother is very sick and about to pass on.

We have talked on the phone about 2 to 3 times a day since then. I have just been supportive and not pressed any R talks.

When she brought up R talks she kept saying we need to go slow. I agreed, which is not really what I want to do but I know that it is for the best. She says she wants to be friends first and then go from there. It kinda makes me nervous but I know this is the best place to start. OM is still in the picture but not as much since she is away, I am still having a hard time with that, I want desperately to tell her that as long as he is in the picture, I am not. But I think that would be extremely counter productive.

Sorry it was so long, and possibly very confusing, but it has been awhile since I have been around..