Ouch! Yelling at the wife?? Ok not a good thing but you have worked through that and realized your mistakes. People make mistakes. No one is perfect. That is one of mine and my hubands problems. I realize people make mistakes, I don't hold a grudge and I forgive quickly. He doesn't make mistakes so no one else should and he never forgives me. He always hated how I forgave easily. You know I have never seen him be mean to anyone except me. He still holds a grudge for stuff before we got married. I would say I am not going to ruin my future by dwelling on stuff in the past...just let it go.
Ok I am not going to call about the helmet. I really did want to ask him about his arm but I will let that one go also. If he wanted me to know he would have told me.
Ok I have a small question. I had this really great time Friday night and well it seems that someone thought I was really nice. (Surprise surprise considering for the last 5 months I have heard what an ogre I am and how much I am hated) About 10 mins ago my friend came in my office with this guys number I spent most of the night hanging around with. He called the bar, tracked down someone else's #, who then called my friend who said no she wouldn't give out my number but will pass his on.
Ok so do I call? Do I go out if he asks? I almost feel like I need to ask my husband for permission. I mean he hasn't seen me in 5 months and we work on the same campus. He is literally a 10 min walk from my office. He doesn't email, text or anything except when we do talk tells me how horrible I am. I am beginning to feel crazy everytime he tells me. The last time he is "literally scared to death of me". I just feel like I am cheating if I call. Is that normal? I want my husband back but I know in my heart he won't come back. I can read numerous books and pray that he opens the door just to talk to me but he hasn't. He can't even tell me he is hurt. That is how much he hates me. The man is going to have sugery and won't even tell me. So what do I do???
