I think that this is a big issue for me, and I have to stop doing it, I wait for H to request to either dialogue or talk, because I feel he has to prove something to me, and I know that I have to stop with that. By not talking, or connecting, it allows me to begin to talk myself into the worst again, my mind begins to come up with all sorts of things, and in doing this it brings me down, and I think that I am getting to that critical place that I wount be able to pull myself out with out medical help. Life at times has become so incredibly overwhelming, and I have been struggling with this, its been hard to work on one things because there is so much else going on, I know that this is just life, but its becoming so incredibly hard to balance and juggle all of this, and now I feel like I am just dropping all the balls!
Me - 44 H - 44 M - 19yrs together - 23yrs D16 S8 EA/PA - Bomb Oct20/06 Jan 8/07 Feb 01/07 Jul 15/07 H still @ home Recovered!
