Helloooo...Smoother Ride....Where Are You?? - Pt.2

[SueS]

Hi everyone-

Well, a quiet couple of days. H came home sick on Friday. He worked for a few hours on Sat., but then slept the rest of the day. It hit me yesterday....pretty hard. I was in bed all day and am at home today too. I could/probably should be at work, but just couldn't get myself up today. H took D3 to school and I'm going to pick her up early.

Got a call this morning from OW's H. He said that OW has told him that the end of their M is no longer a matter of if, but when. I told him I was starting to feel that way too. He and OW talk A LOT more than H and I do. OW & her H lived in CA several years ago. OW is from there. Apparently OW & her H have talked about moving the family back there. Not good for me and my family though, as she told her H that there's been talk between her and my H about him moving there if she goes too. She has mentioned to her H that she and my H are planning on living together. If that happens, I will file. I won't wait to see if it end. I can't do that. I know some people have, but I don't think I can. I cried when I heard OW's H talk about CA. I'm not at all surprised that my H would leave us (me and D3) that far behind, but it breaks my heart for D3. She'd be devestated. OW's H asked me if I thought my H would ever actually change and settle down. I don't think he will. I think that after a few months or so of bliss, reality will hit for both of them. Apparently OW is a lot like my H in the spending area too. She spends without regard to what else needs to be paid & has even taken advances on credit cards to pay for things. OW told her H that my H said he will take care of her and he knows that he kids come with her. I don't see how my H can take care of himself, his own child, OW & her 4 kids when he can't keep up on his own bills & take enough time for his own D3. I'm angry and I want reality to hit him very hard.

I cried a lot yesterday too when I was so sick. H didn't ask me if I needed anything & at times didn't even get up to help with D3. All I wanted was someone to care about me. D3 was the only one to do anything like that. How unfair is that to her to have to take care of her mommy?

Well, I'm going to get a shower taken so I can go pick D3 up in about an hour.

SueS