First, I moved into my new apartment over the weekend which meant getting some of "my" things out of our house. It felt great moving into a new place!
I had dinner with my wife and kids last night as usual. Got the girls loaded up in my truck and my wife and I chatted a few minute or so while standing outside the truck. We were talking about a number of things she still needs to do that she's required to do in our separation agreement. Call it a backslide if you want but as we were finishing up the conversation I said to her, "I've said it before and I'll say it again, I take my word seriously. One issue you said you had with me was being able to depend on my word. Well the vow was for richer, for poorer, in sickness and health, for better or for worse. We've done them all now and are at worse and I intend to keep my word. I don't mean pressure by this just hope it can provide you comfort." Her response, yes it does, thank you. Then with a big smile she gave me a big hug.
This morning as the girls were getting ready for school D9 said to me. Mommy was smiling really big last night, I like it when I see you too smiling at each other like that. It's been a while since I've seen Mommy smile like that with you.
So now I feel like D9 has all of the sudden gotten a false sense of hope. I tried to tell her that Mommy and Daddy where just having and nice conversation and nothing else. But she wasn't going to believe that.
Ugh, I hate mixed signals and all the things they bring.
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
