BT - I don't know if your thinking is wrong, but it it's exactly what I'm thinking too. I take comfort in the fact that I'm "sticking it out" no matter what she throws at me, and I've been having a great time with my kids.
I made a promise to stick it out no matter what and I'm going to until I'm forced to do something else. I do believe she's in pain, and accept that my being there is probably causing more, or at least resentment. For me there's just no other option right now though. She would love it if I just up and left but I don't see that as the right decision for me or the kids.
It's a nightmare for sure, but hope (even if I'm kidding myself) seems like the right attitude. I take the crumbs she throws, remain as supportive as I can without getting in the way, and am the best dad I can be. It's incredibly hard, but at least it's a positive path.
My struggle now is to stop worrying about what she'll do next. If she chooses to force me out somehow, nothing else I can do about it so I have to try and stop stressing. I'll just show love and take the hits. Sap, chump, wimp...maybe, but my only other option is to go negative and then we all lose for sure.
Hang in there everyone.
Me:37 WAW:35 M:10 T:15 Ds:9, 5 She Dropped Bomb:9/02/07 Both still at home
