Beginning again like a newbie

[ACJ]

I'm struggling a bit today. I know why I just don't know how to deal with it.

Recently I have been receiving the Charlyne cares emails. I find them very uplifting and if nothing else they are beginning to restore my sense of hope (not just about M but about life too). Add this to seeing H (unexpectedly) this weekend and I feel like I'm back to square one. I'm finding myself sitting and contemplating him over and over again. Its driving me nuts. I'm back to getting nothing done b/c all i can think about is him.


Well its out there now. Hopefully now I can let go again and try and detach more successfully.