Help Me Act AS IF, Part 3

[newnamenewlife]

Thanks CW. At least your H says there's a chance at reconciling. Mine seems 100 percent certain that this is the only way.
He criticized me as a mother, said I never asked about his work (UNTRUE!!!), think only of myself, etc.

I am just reeling in agony. Despite our problems, we have always had fun and laughter and been great friends. Is there ANY relationship that doesn't get screwed up in some way, develop some bad dynamics over the course of 20 years??

Then the thought of not seeing my kids every day. I want to see them every day. But H wants 50/50 custody.

One of the things he finds so unpleasant about me are my histrionics, yet there I was, in full hysteria, sobbing and sobbing.