Well, I don't know much to say, but knowing me I'll probably end up saying quite a bit (lol). Coming to Piecing does not mean all is well,but it means things are better and both are working at the M.
I feel that I have come through someting in my life that will certainly help me to be more understanding of other WAW's. I stayed in Sex Starved forum, mostly b/c I was pulled over there (lol).....long story, but everyone was so sweet to me.
I think that I have come through the mini-MLC that I had. Good thing it didn't last as long as most b/c I don't have that much time left for a full-blown MLC.....I'm only 60. Yes, I say it proudly....I am 60 years old! Thank God I have been able to live this long.
I am feeling more like my old self and don't have the hang-ups about my age, looks, etc. that I was fretting over. I certainly don't have the desire to flirt with anyone or to go on line and look for somebody to play "the game" with just b/c I may feel lonely or my needs are not being met.
I have suffered, my H has sufferd, and my whole family......b/c I am an important cornerstone to this family and I do not want to see it cumble b/c of me. Don't want to sound like a sarificed lamb here by no means, it's my poor attempt in trying to say that I think I have finally come out of the fog and don't have that horrible feeling of wanting to "run" like I did. You see, there for a while, I was so messed up emotionally, that I was almost ready to turn my back on everything here...including my family, and just start runing. I needed to escape. I thought I would lose my mind if I didn't get away.
But, that has lifted and I have peace once more. Our M is not what is can be and that is what I will need to work on. I think my H's health may be declining and he may not be able to work nearly as much as he did just two years ago. He has tried to hide that from me, but when I finally "looked" at him, I saw it. I am sure last year aged him very much. I know I am to blame for that, but I can't undo what I did, I can only try to make the best of things now.
I'm going to post my first couple of threads here, if anyone wants to read all that junk....lol. Anyway, hope you all will visit me, but I am still going around in the other forums to see if there are any words of experience or wisdom (from age...lol) that I might be able to give.
Be seeing you....I hope.
Sandi
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
