He filed.

[Ophelia]

Thanks for all the hugs and support, everyone.

The thing is, I had been feeling better about life in general. I had been dressing better, and I even got a cute new haircut which was shorter than I'd had it since I was a little kid. I've been trying to get into some regular exercise, and even left some hand weights lying around so I could make a gratuitous mention of having used them when he was here, (he's a bit of a gym junkie, so I thought he might take interest). Now I'm feeling all shot down again and wondering what the point of it all is.

I've got zero interest in getting back out there to find someone else. This whole process has made me all cold and cynical about love, and I'm not sure I could put myself, (and my family) through it all again. I doubt I'd ever be able to trust someone enough to feel secure in a relationship, even if we were together for a decade and ended up M, that's still no guarantee that it won't just end in pain.

I've been catching up with MIL (and usually FIL as well) for lunch every month or so. She's my tie to keeping in touch with what's happening with all of my BIL, SIL and nieces and nephews. The last I heard from her was a txt for my b'day where she said we should catch up soon.