Kalni,

I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for your latest post to my thread. You almost made me cry. And you definitely made me laugh!

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I think you are doing the best job by far working on yourself and REALLY dealing with your "issues".


Are you serious?? This has to be one of the nicest compliments anyone has ever given me. I"m really trying to get to the bottom of things... And if you guys see me persisting in a state of delusion, TELL ME. I want to know!!

I think this inspiration to work on myself came pretty early on... when I was reaching Thich Naht Hahn's book Anger, which is really about couples and reconciliation. He wrote:

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Many people ask the question--"what if the other person doesn't want to cooperate, doesn't want to listen?" If the other person doesn't want to listen to you, to talk to you, or to work it out with you right now, then continue to practice and transform yourself so that reconciliation will be possible."


It's funny because AmyC wrote something similar that I printed out:

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...when you put yourself in that gap on behalf of your spouse, God is first going to deal with you. When you have reached a place within yourself where you can truly look at yourself through the eyes of God and ask Him to change YOU, then you'll be getting somewhere. But only if you really, honestly seek the truth.


Even though they are coming from really different traditions... it is like the same thing.

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I know that you hurt and you don't share with us all those sad and heartbreaking details like you do about your muffin making.


Kalni... how did you know? There is a lot of stuff I leave out... mostly because it is so up and down. It seems like "went to yoga class, made some muffins" is probably more interesting and hopeful for others and myself than to do posts like, "crawled back into bed, cried for no reason, went to yoga class, obsessed about R on bike ride home, made some muffins, felt hopeless, fell asleep at 3 am after talking to God out loud for a long time"!! \:\)
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You are preparing yourself for the greatest love of all in you life (is it your B or someone else) and you better... start waxing girl because I hear the footsteps on your yard...


Kalni... you are filling my heart with joy. Truly truly. I really hope I can share all this with my B. I understand on an intellectual level that other men exist, but my heart is still all for my B.

I wish I had a yard!!!!! Then I would fill it with vegetable plants and fruit and olive trees!!

OMG Kalni... I haven't waxed since the beginning of OCTOBER!! (last time I saw B). And I GOTTA wax, b/c of my mediteranean heritage!! Maybe I should make an appt before my trip out to San Francisco!

LOVE
TRANSFORMER