Well, I moved into piecing too early. W just left again. As most of you know, though, I was wondering if that would be for the best - we tried again too fast.
Very weird, too. She did this after going over to her aunt's and getting the rest of her things to bring back over here.
Anyway, spent most of the afternoon talking about it. She admitted that she was still emotionally involved with OM. Also said it was too little too late for our R, that she didn't feel like she had the energy for it. Said she didn't feel like touching me and wasn't attracted to me. Didn't get excited when I touched her. She was very concerned that she got so flipped out yesterday. Said she didn't feel like we had a connection, only a shared past, but that we were friends. Of course, all this sounds like textbook DR statements, right?
Then she asked what I wanted in a R. I told her and she said "This is where I start saying 'What's wrong with me?'". She said she needs to talk to a professional. She also said that when she thought about the future she just saw herself alone. She sat for a long time. Tried to start packing again, but couldn't decide. Finally I told her she should go if she was uncomfortable, and she did.
I think it's for the best. I knew we were jumping back into things too soon, but was just so happy that she wanted to come back. Feeling pretty crappy right now but I think in the long run this setback will help me focus on me.
