jamesjohn, definitely a good topic to start, i'm interested in seeing what people have to say.
the internet provides us with quite the conundrum, as it's like a continual first date.
you know, on a first date, you brush your teeth twice, chew with your mouth closed, ask interesting questions and provide provacatively interesting answers to questions you're asked...
you are as perfect as you can be, and so are the people you talk to, especially if you (and they) are lonely.
i remember thinking, before I embarked on my own little internet voyage, how SAD it was for people to be tied to their monitors, looking for a connection in this immensely lonely world...
and yes, how sad indeed.
one night 2 1/2 years ago, going to bed, totally depressed with my sitch. my H had been drinking a lot for a lot of years and Al Anon wasn't really making me feel any better. i tried, i really did, to grasp the concept of "detaching with love", but the fights H started over nothing, and the continuous accusations "YOU COULDN'T POSSIBLY UNDERSTAND ME!", followed by going to sleep on the living room floor ~ it was too much. So, I prayed... I prayed and prayed, "Lord, please give me the knowledge of your will for me and the power to carry that out." I prayed long and hard into the night.
I feel asleep and had an intense dream. I woke up the next day and when I got to work, went looking for information on the content of my dream... ON LINE. I found a message board. So, I'm thinking this is God's will, right?
The story's really long, I could type all day.
But, here I am. X-internet-OM, M devastated on both sides not because of the internet, but because it was just much easier to talk to ppl online than it was to talk to my H. People who had brushed their teeth twice...
So, here I am. Still on-line, but on the DB website.
I don't know where I'm going with this, but. The internet is a dangerous combination of reality and fantasy. I mean, the xeom IS real, right? A person with feelings and all that? And I am real, right? I get my feelings hurt and all that?
Sometimes I feel like my head is in a can. Sometimes I feel incapable of dealing with the real world out here because I'm so interested in hearing what the people with super clean teeth have to say.
It's a conundrum...
And with that, I think I'll log off for the day
(and now that i've double-checked what i've written and added the appropriate emoticon here and there... i shall hit "continue".... good day ppl)
