Is this way more than usual, or am I just imagining things? If it is more than usual, do you think you might be feeling lost because you are getting to see him and have fun with him, but things are not resolved, so inside it feels like crazy crazy thunderstorm of disappointment-hope-despair-anger-sadness- lonely-where-is-my-h-oh-he'shereonthecouch-but-he's-not"here"??
T-Yes, I think that may be it. Sometimes I feel SO OK and then other days I totally DON'T! I actually really think I'm NOT ok. I've been having these dreams lately where I confront H. So, I think that it is my feelings stewing on the inside.
For some reason, I've been crying a lot more lately. So, as an FYI to everyone...when I'm not on the board, I'm doing ok. When I show back up, it is me needing a little vent or help or both.
H & I, both 32, together since 18. *M 7/03, A since 9/06. Bomb 7/07, H ended it w/ OW 9/08 * Agreed to D 6/09...very hard *D 8/10 * At peace, have become great friends w/ X-H and his new GF
