TRYING to enjoy the quietness

[kissak]

I will not assume the worse.
i will not assume the worse
I will not assume the worse....

but I did. UGh!! I did it anyway. I hate myself.

I will not assume the worse
I will not assume the worse

I actually said that I hate my H today. I didnt say it to him, but I said it. Broke down. Said I hate him.

I dont really, Im just tired.

Saw his truck at the OW's house.

Bummed over it.

Assuming the worst.

I will not assume.

I need some closure. I am going crazy with all the uncertainties.

How do I keep doing this.

I guess my Problem lately is how to let go and still have hope.
I feel like I have to let go of all hope for this working out, to be able to move on. And I cant do that either.

Sorry guys....Im just moody the last few days....is that an excuse??