You know what's weird, I guess being alone, I had time to think for a change, no kids interrupting me for the first time in years. I was cleaning now, and I just realized I think it will be good for me when H moves out in 2 weeks. He's been making me feel worthless, horrible, and stupid by calling me those names or treating me that way for long enough now that I realized today I agree with him: I feel that way about myself too. I am screwed up. Hopefully, when he moves out and with my C's help, maybe I can undo some (all?) of the damage...Karen
