What a strange few days we have had. H was a crabby a$$ on Friday b/c of repair bills for his truck ($600) that he is trying to sell. Also b/c there is not enough time for him to do everything before he leaves for Iowa.
But after he got back from his "beer run" Friday night, we enjoyed some TV time together. Then I came down and posted before I went to bed. Wish I had waited! I would have had more to share...
Once I got into bed I rolled over to hug him goodnight (a new thing I have been doing for about 5 days, I hug him and sometimes kiss his cheek or mouth goodnight when I come to bed. I don't consider it pursuing b/c I ask for nothing back. Just decided I am not the undecided one so I am not going to hide my feelings anymore. Distant doesn't work for me...)
Anyway I put my arm around his waist and leaned up to kiss him goodnight and he rolled over and gave me a REAL kiss. We have had only "Grandma" kisses in the past 2 months (tight lipped and dry ). Anyway we full-on made out and "played" together. No actual sex but I preferred our playing b/c we were kissing and touching each other which feels more personal to me than sex, at least since I found out about his A anyway.
So yesterday I was in a good mood thanks the good night. We had a couple disagreements as always but handled them in a non-confrontational way and got past them. I went to church last night to usher and he kept working on the bathroom remodel, plus had to go meet a couple who wanted to look at the truck. After church I got a TM: "Pick up some pizza or Chinese and a "Dad and Nate(S5)" movie and meet me at home, I am out getting plumbing tape".
So we got pizza and the original Transformers cartoon movie from 1986, the one my H and I would have remembered. H got home 5 minutes after we did. I thought it was great that even w/all the stuff he had to do, he made time for "family night" before he left. So I told him how happy I was that he took the time...
And over pizza he announced that the couple decided to buy his truck for $500 more than he owes. Which means it almost covered the repair bill too. I am sure that lightened his mood a bit!
Unfortunately I am exhausted from walking around w/this boot on my ankle/foot and being back to work full-time this week. I crashed on the couch before the movie was over. So there was no "LOVE" with my H last night. Oh well. He kissed the kiddies goodbye before he left for Iowa, and when he ran to town to get something he needed he brought me back a fountain pop (soda to most of you) which is one of the "little things" I like for him to do.
When he left I got teary, and he said "I am going to see you later tonight, it's no big deal". I am going to my parents tonight so I can be ready for my interview tomorrow. So we will both be back in Iowa tonight. I am not staying with him simply b/c tomorrow is his first day of the new job and I don't want him up all night with one of the kids crying, etc. Besides my SIL and her two kids (including a 4 week old) will be visiting my MIL for the next 3 days and using the baby cribs and spare bedroom. Poor H is sharing his room with the 22 month old in her crib!
So anyway I didn't plan to see him tonight but he said he probably would, which was nice. I won't initiate, if he wants to see us he will. But YAY! I just have a feeling deep down that things are turning for the better. We will see. Him being in Iowa 5 days a week will give him time away from me to think about his life and what he really wants it to be like.....
). Anyway we full-on made out and "played" together. No actual sex but I preferred our playing b/c we were kissing and touching each other which feels more personal to me than sex, at least since I found out about his A anyway.
