ok, snodderly or YR or SF, or all you who can answer.....
I thought I posted this when I first got on here but I was talking to dryheat and he didn't remember reading it so I thought I would get your opinion on it....
About 23 years ago before we got married my H was going through some anxiety about being able to take responsibility for me as his wife...being able to take care of me and possibly a family...well, he got some medication and was fine...lost a little bit of weight but was great when we got married.... Then about a month later he went in to a depression...his job was not what he wanted (not enough money, etc), so he sat and starred at a wall for 3 months...didn't say much...and I was right there telling him how much I loved him,and that he'd be okay...I worked full time since he wasn't working and we pretty much depleated our savings because he wasn't working...well, he went for counseling then and did well....I went a few times with him and he was telling the counselor that it wasn't me that he didn't want to be without me...he was on meds for a while then just went off them..he had always felt like he was going to have a heart attack and his counselor would say, "well, did you?",he said NO...but his counselor made him feel stupid and that's why he won't even think about seeing one now...plus the fact he says he knows how he feels and he doesn't need anyone to tell him how he feels...as he said to his friend, "if you don't like broccoli, you can't MAKE someone like it." I guess I'm a vegetable now... Anyway, fast forward....got through that had great years,,had a baby..but then 3 miscarriages....had 2nd baby...then my son...son had medical issues, had to have surgery at 3 months, perfectly fine now...H changed jobs in there somewhere...loves his job or so he says he does, but works God awful hours....but I got used to it...we were happy, so the hours didn't matter..
Then we had 5 surgeries in 1 year...2 H had on the same thing and that brought him down...I told him he was going to be okay... we fixed up the house, new floor, new furniture..blah, blah, blah, then the bomb, and he hasn't been happy for 15 years...
Could it be he still has unresolved issues from the depression from all those years ago? I think he isn't really happy with his job...and he is trying to convince himself he is, even though he has brought it up to me 3 times in the past 3 weeks about being worried they were going to phase it out...I'm trying to piece this together and I think it all goes together and now the demons in his head are convinced it's me that is making him unhappy when in fact I believe it's his job.....
I know this is a long post, sorry...
Treese
Treese
H 49 M 45 D 23, D17, S12 M 25 T 31 01/07 OW H at my door w/proof Bomb ILYBINILWY 06/07 Sep 01/08 headed for the greener grass, Mar08.B#2H has child who is 9 11/08 pos.paternity
