Sir;
You're right...he did check out...he bailed...came to that fork in the road and took the wrong route...
I too was a pleaser, fixer...but I enjoyed pleasing people...I loved doing things for them and seeing their faces when it was done...I do know he is rewriting our history...it is just hard to accept....everyone knows me and knows what type of person that I am, and that I wouldn't just agree with separating...I adored my H...every day, every hour...my family was number 1...I guess now I have to be number 1...

Doesn't it just blow your mind that they can talk to you every day, sometimes 2 &3 times a day, for 29 years, and then not want to talk to you at all, and not be bothered by it...I feel sometimes like I really didnt exist, that I'm going crazy...

I had to sit on my hands the other night because I was so angry that my H hadn't talked to my son for 4 days and couldn't even call my cell to talk to him...I wanted to call and chew him out but thanks to Jeff (dryheat), I didn't call him, because really my H wouldn't have cared...and it would have just proven that he was right in leaving...I have made 180's, of course they go unnoticed but I like the way I am now...someday maybe he'll see me for the real person I am...

D21 comes home tomorrow...H hasn't called her since he left 5 weeks ago...he promised her he would call her more often since he wasn't home...1 broken promise down the drain...now he is probably afraid to talk to her because she will tell you like it is...that's why I need her...she is a very strong girl...very bright, and she is what's keeping me afloat right now...my girls will stick with each other...my son misses his dad...and his sister...son called his sister last night to see what time she was coming home tomorrow....he loves her so much....

Anyway,, I'm trying...really...and I'm not doing too awfully bad, just fall sometimes...I really sometimes think I'm in a nightmare, and I want to wake up....

Treese


Treese

H 49
M 45
D 23, D17, S12
M 25 T 31
01/07 OW H at my door w/proof
Bomb ILYBINILWY 06/07
Sep 01/08 headed for the greener grass,
Mar08.B#2H has child who is 9
11/08 pos.paternity