It just seems like she is putting in no effort what so ever and seems so hopeless. I would do anything to save my marriage but it takes two and she is so nasty and combative all the time. She loves it and I hate it. It's very painful.
My Dad said "never wrestle with a pig, you both get muddy but the pig loves it". Well she is having a great time and this is no fun for me.
She is always running around, Philly tonight and out with friends the next. I will be taking care of the boys and running them to soccer and other things. I feel really used. I pay all the bills and she banks her check. It S*cks. I thought she would come back from her twelve day cruise with a new attitude but it just got worse. If someone could only tell me, or give me an estimate how long I would be in this hell it would be bareable. Now it is just pain everyday. Today is great because she is not here and the house is calm and quite. The boys love when she is gone yet even when she is here she is not home much anyway. I feel like a nanny that pays the bills.
I am going to Colorado next week and I am going to GAL my A** off.
Thanks for your thoughts and just to let you know I have not given up yet but I don't know how much longer I can do this. I know that she is about to give up too. I would not miss her rudness to me or the kids and her feeling she is so important wth her cell phone and texting. It is all a big act.
I had so much fun today hangin with old friends that I have not seen in a long time and they were so happy i was there hangin with them. This would not happen if my W was around. Other friends just called just now and said come down to the Cigar Shop and hang. This I can notdofor no one is here to watch the kiddo's.
