My H and I were peicing for a week (kind of like - dating). Things were going good. Then we went out drinking and all my emotions just exploded at him. I was very angry and scared at the time. But I told him he is too much of an alcoholic and I don't like him going to the bars every night.
This turned into a huge fight(mostly caused by me). He convinced me stay at his apartment cuz I had been drinking and could not drive home. When I woke up, I went to go apologize to him. He pulled me close and kissed me and we ended up making love for the first time since Dec. (I knew it wasn't the right thing to do, but I had felt so bad about being so angry the night before).
Afterwards he told me he knows we have a lot of issues to talk about but he didn't want to do it then. I had to leave to go bowling on my league and I said ok, and "get a hold of me", he said he would.
When I got home, I Text him: "please forgive me, and I hope I dindn't ruin what we got started". He text me back "I am having reservations and there are a lot of things that wont be to fun to discuss, I shouldnt have gotten with you this morning, I am such a dog".
When I got back from bowling, he had previously come and gotten his things from my place. He has not called me all day.
I am afraid that I really messed this up. I do feel like the issues I have with him needed to be talked about and I just did it all the wrong way. I am pretty sure he is still deep in replay, and all my crying and complaining last night are only going to send him running again. This was my worst back slide ever. TIPPER
