Evening guys! Thought I would pop in and tell you how it went last night. I had so much fun!!! It was a blast. After the party this friend and I ended up in some hole in the wall dive she goes to about once a week for a beer. I mean tiny place and where ever one knows everyone. I didn't get home until 2 and I have a slight hangover today. But I have not had so many men talk to me at one time. Must have been the nailpolish \:\)

I actually felt pretty darn good last night and all day today. I mean my husband constantly made me feel awful about the way I look. And I am far from being unattractive. But when your spouse doesn't want you then you feel cruddy. But anywho they want us to stop by Sunday afternoon because some band playing. So we are heading out again tomorrow afternoon. Some men she knows wanted to go riding tomorrow but I left my helmet at my husbands house and I don't really feel like calling and asking him for it so I just said no.

Oh yeaaaaaaa....ok I don't know if I mentioned because I can't remember if I did but my husband had been going to the doctor alot. I mean he has gone 11 times since we split up that I know of. Well I finally found out today what is wrong. A friend of mine that works on campus who knows my husband couldn't stand it anymore not knowing what is wrong with him so she sent him an email yesterday saying hi what's up and just checking to see how you are doing. She hasn't talked to him since months before we split.

He responded back he is doing ok (his exact words ok.) BUT then blah blah blah blah.

He told her that he has degenerating nerves in his right arm and he has been going to the dr about it. That he has lost 50% of the nerve use from his shoulder to his fingers. He has been going off campus for about a month to a specialist because they are going to have to do surgery on him.

She said he didn't ask how she was doing but just spelled it out what was wrong with him.

Just curious but if someone who you knew was your left behind spouses friend emailed would you tell them that? I mean if one of his friends emailed I would lie my butt off and act like I am hanging the moon and that stars and doing just awesome! I wonder if he didn't think she was going to tell me??

Also don't your nerves control the movement in your body? I have been sitting here thinking about him riding his motorcycle, out playing frisbee golf, partying at night, playing his game without me and building this all up in my head. And come to find out he can't do those things with 50% of his nerves gone. His is truly not riding his motorcyle with any other woman.

I know this is horrible but I don't feel sad for him. I did wonder why he hasn't told me because this is major. This is going to cost alot of money, time, therapy and pain. So I am sad he didn't think enough of me to let me know but not sad that it is happening to him.

Well guys I am going to get myself some aspirin and relax and not think about him tonight.
Take care!