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[BEAUTYandWAH]

Journaling..

So I have a crazy story that I wanted talk to myself (I am not sure if someone want to listen to this..)

H and I met through a friend of mine (lets call her, Laura) 9 years ago. We exchanged phone number and called each other several times and met up at bars and started to know each other. But it did not go any where. I was not interested in him and he was busy with other female ( I believe..) A couple month later, he told me that he would be deployed in a couple weeks. We hugged and said good bye. While he was gone, I thought about him sometimes but was not like I missed him. Just wondered how he was doing..

A few month after he left, I met a guy (lets call him..John). He and I started date and R was crazy. We both didn't respect each other, were childish and R didn't go anywhere. I knew it. When things were going down.. I went to see Fortune Teller ( this is the crazy part..) skeptical but was curious what Fortune Teller will tell me. 6 of my friends went to see this Fortune Teller and the outcome was 'collect' and 'wrong'. The one started this phenomena was Laura, who worked in the same building with the Fortune Teller. She tagged along with many of us because she was just into it then.

August of 1999, Fortune Teller was straight forward and told me many things..Here are the most of the thing he said..

-I will meet the husband to be in this year.
-he is White (my BF at the time was not White)
-I will marry next year.
-I will have baby girl near future.
-I already know the man I am marrying.
-One of my friends is key person of how we meet.
-the friend could be Laura
-He is from middle part of US. (BF then was from Cali.)

At the time, I was skeptical and was just laughing at this. I went to see him about current situation and told me all about different man! So, I just thought "yea, i don't think i got anything out of it..." and forgot about it.

Two month later, I heard H's unit coming back to town. Somehow, I really wanted to see him and thought I should stop by the bar we met(it was the place H hanged out every weekend.) Non of my friends wanted to go with me with lots of different reasons. But I was soo determined that I had to go. So, my friend called her friend who I met only a few times if she could go with me. And she said 'sure, I will go with Beauty'

When I walked in the bar the night, there was H with all the same friends. We talked and were very happy to meet again. I gave him my number. The very next day, he called. We fell in love very quickly.

The next year, I got pregnant and decided to get married. After we had a baby girl, I remembered what Fortune Teller told me.. I got very very excited, Wow this could happen???
H was from Illinois, after all and white.


Crazy? Yup Crazy. Oh, one more thing what Fortune Teller told me.
he said "You will not have divorce, one marriage in your life.. you know why? because you are VERY patient, I cannot believe how much you can stand all the things happen.. You will go through"

Now, I think.. Do I really go through this...??

Beauty