You are amazing, inspiring, fun to read (and bet to be with), you are upbeat, openhearted (my word?), probably very tender (otherwise we woudln't be (((hugging))) so much) funny, thoughtful, clever, an artist, a great cook-muffins maker at least, you can connect easily with all people and I want you to know that from all the people on this boards that I came across their stories, I think you are doing the best job by far working on yourself and REALLY dealing with your "issues".
I do not know if your B is coming back -but I did hear what you said about the voice and that means a lot to me- but whenever that special man comes into your life and you choose him to be your life partner he will have won the LOTTO, or whatever you guys call the first most important prize anyone can win...
I know that you hurt and you don't share with us all those sad and heartbreaking details like you do about your muffin making. I very often think of you and how going dark must feel like, but I don't believe what happened was an accident, or luck. You are preparing yourself for the greatest love of all in you life (is it your B or someone else) and you better... start waxing girl because I hear the footsteps on your yard...
Love Kalni
PS Consider the last part about waxing my interpretation of your dream...
