I feel like I am to blame. maybe i should have said something different or maybe i should have been nicer.
It makes my stomach and heart hurt, to know you feel this way.
It makes me want to put a mirror in your face, and sit there with you and convince you over and over again, you are not to blame.
The dynamics here have changed now Lisa. The "MLC Excuse" may no longer be used, when it comes to your H.
For you see, he is an abuser, cheater, liar, and abandoner.
He has taken what is precious the most precious in his life, and CHOSE by his own stupidity, to hurt it in a way, that is NEVER acceptable.
I hate that you allow him to convince you, that you may be at fault in any of this.
You have been thru so much. Giving birth to his child practically on your own, while he was spewing only venom.
Leave him to God, we will see har far in life he gets.
He will forever be lost, and never happy.
What he has done, is the worst any man can do. Strike a woman.
He is a coward, and he is not fit to be in your presence any longer.
So please cry it out, scream at the top of your lungs, call your friends, have them watch your kids.
But please do not disrespect your self any longer in saying that you may have blame.
You are a mother, and a woman. You are not a piece of meat, or trash, that gets hit and discarded.
Value your self.
He is one man, only one. He does not have power over you, or your decisions or your feelings.
You have a long road of healing in front of you, that you WILL do one day at a time.
You get your self into counseling. You pray like you have never prayed before.
You get this D. You protect your self. He has taken so much away from you already. He will not take your self worth, and your ability to make the correct decisions.
You and your children are the priority here.
Let your kids know that no matter what, you are there for them.
Let your kids be proud of the mother that you are. Let them know that no one, will rob your self worth. No one.
Especially a coward.
YOu can do this.
Repeat it to your self everyday.
And if you forget it
we will be here to remind you.
Now. chin up, and do this.
Live Simply Love Generously Care Deeply Speak Kindly Leave the rest to God
