moving from MLC- It's Lisa

[LisaLost]

Thanks everybody!!

Having a rough day already. My H got out of jail yesterday. I have no idea who bonded him out. My sis said she saw him at the store near where we live and he was smiling and acting happy while he was buying cigarettes. He has already beem telling people that all I did was put him down and use him for money- And that all he did to me was push me after I pushed him.Now I know that the police know different and my hospital report shows different but still it hurts that people believe him. Without even looking at evidence.

I haven't filed any divorce paperwork but will need to soon and i am so scared. Part of me wants to make him do it since he is acting like such an ass- and all he has to do is hang out with his buddies and not worry about the kids maybe I should make him get the divorce. instead of me doing everything and him just getting to watch from the sidelines in a recliner. I hate this so much

I feel like I am to blame. maybe i should have said something different or maybe i should have been nicer. I have been kinda standoffish since his most recent affair in October. I just have been afraid to be hurt again. I feel so lost. So hurt. How can he tell people that he is innocent and all he did was push me? He knows what he did- why not just own up to it? He KNOWS what happened- why is he lying?

I am so hurt by that, so hurt


Lisa