I'm sorry to hear your news. Don't threaten your friends here with your absence, there are lots of places on this board you can move to. I agree, posting in piecing probably doesn't make much sense for you right now, emotionally it would send yourself the wrong message.
As for your R with h, try to quit obsessing about it or trying to understand it. Quit trying to get him to see things your way.
(1) The way you see things today will be very different than how you see them six months from now. NEITHER of you has an objective outlook right now.
Hi Cat...
I'm really sorry he's putting you through this....but you don't need to leave. And post whereever you feel most comfortable.
All of his words don't mean what they seem to mean. They mean, these are the glasses he has on NOW.
Oldtimer's words are really true.
Do whatever's good for you to take care of yourself right now.
thinking of you, sg
sg Love is PATIENT, love is KIND, LOVE never fails / DB since 2001