Now we are back to middle ground I think. Not fighting, not madly desperately in love.....
H went to get his beers. Was gone 90 min. I sent a text asking if he was ok. (He does that when I leave so I can "think" without being around him and the kids so I thought it would be ok).
He said he was "Watching Airplanes"--a country song reference if you don't know what that is. A guy is sitting watching airplanes as his W/Girlfriend is taking off, leaving him. He says he is watching airplanes wondering why "You don't love me anymore". Anyway that has been kind of our code word for out just driving and thinking.....
When he came home 20 min later I said, "It is fine for you to watch airplanes, just remember you don't need to wonder why I don't love you anymore bc I still do and always have". Pushy or not, it was the truth so I said it.
Anyway we sat in the TV room and watched "The Girls Next Door" on E! for awhile. Then he went to bed. We actually had "normal" conversation the whole time even though we were on different couches. Much improved from earlier tonight when he was crab-a$$ of the world...... Don't know if it was the beer or the driving that mellowed him but I am good with either at this point.
Anyway going to bed now. He is already in there. No pressure, just going to go to sleep. The only time anything really fun happens is when I leave him alone anyway.............then it is all HIS idea
