MLC BS/2?

[Drew]

That's why they call it a rollercoaster, Patrick. And it's a long ride. But it will all work out in the end.

[Patrick325]

I hope your right...I reeaaly need a vacation from it all!!

[Drew]

If you need to step away from it all to clear your head, by all means do so. Even if it's just for an hour or two.

[Patrick325]

a month or two is more like it....

[Punktmann]

it's weird how you can start to feel like it's all falling apart and you are doing everything wrong and how these posts can change your perception.

Thank God for this board.

But you go through cycles of these feelings and every time you think you have it kicked it turns back around on you.

Yep.

You don't know it, but every time you get yourself to a slightly better place, you are practicing. We all know what practice makes, but it takes time.

You don't believe this now, but you are going to be fine. Not real soon, but you will.

[Patrick325]

I know I'll be OK, it's just this in between time that is tough. Not knowing if it will work out. Wondering if you should just give up and move on. I guess if I were a more desicive person it would be easier. I know what I want but I don't know if I'm willing to tough it out. Even if she wanted me back I will have a lot of issues. So much water under the bridge!

[Patrick325]

I know I'll be OK, it's just this in between time that is tough. Not knowing if it will work out. Wondering if you should just give up and move on. I guess if I were a more desicive person it would be easier. I know what I want but I don't know if I'm willing to tough it out. Even if she wanted me back I will have a lot of issues. So much water under the bridge!

[Patrick325]

I was thinking about something today that really bothered me. I remember when the OM used to say to my W and I when he was drunk..."you guys are so awesome, your kids are great,your such great friends, etc. " Now he has basically stolen that family from me...It's like he planned it all along..He admired our family so he saw the opportunity and he took it. Why didn't I see it?? I look back and remember being jealous when the kids wanted to spend time over there or my wife would make plans for all of us to spend time together almost every weekend. Or she would call him if we needed some sugar or an egg or something. I wish I would have done something...I don't know what but something....Now I here he is planning on building a bigger house and I suppose take my W and kids with him...It gets me sick!

[Patrick325]

Went over to help my W clean up the yard so we can sell the house. It is so hard to be there and look around. All the memories seem to hit me when I have a second alone and look around. The only diff is no pictures of me up. Plus she's added pics of the OM's kids even though she has been staying at his house most of the time. I wondered why she asked me to come over and help and was hoping she was warming up to me. But we really didn't talk much. I worked and got things cleaned up. Then the dipstick OM got home across the street. She suddenly was too tired to do any more work so we put it off till tommorrow....

[Patrick325]

I went to my Brother In laws BDay party te other day. My W came over and brought the kids. We got along pretty good. I feel so alienated from her now and it gets harder to see her. She seems to be doing better and it makes me feel like she is truly oving on while I sit here and wait. I had to pick something up at the house and she wasn't there. Her car was at OM's house and they must have been out on his motorcycle. It hurt me knowing she was out with him doing something she never did with me. We had always said we wouldn't ride on a motorcycle because of the danger and we didn't want to risk it since we had kids. Now she's out having fun with this a##hole and I can't get over her. It gets me mad at myself. Makes me feel like a loser!