Crazy or What Please Help

[NikB]

(((Beagle)))

(that means hugs for you, Beagle)

NO it is not right.

And NO you are not stupid. I know the feeling, all too well - I really do. But you are not stupid. Naive, in love, too trusting, not giving yourself enough credit - maybe (probably). But stupid, no way.

Have you gotten the Divorce Remedy book yet? If not I recommend it highly. But first things first:

What is so weird is my mind and body is doing really strange things. Everything is so intense.

This too is very normal - and something you need to start working your way through.

First steps:

Breathe in
Breathe out
Repeat... deliberate, slow, deep breaths. Really be conscious of your breathing.

The fact that you said your body feels weird reminds me of something that happened very early in my sitch. I was taken by ambulance to the hospital and it turns out to be a breathing problem caused by the stress. I started to have this weird seizure-like thing (in the midst of a haircut of all things, not even anything stressful!). It had happened in my hands before - my hands and arms just felt WEIRD, like they had a mind of their own or something, but it never got worse.

Until... mid-haircut, my fingers clamped tight and I couldn't open them, then my arms seized up so tight I couldn't pull them away from my body, and it continued to get worse. I honestly thought something was wrong and I was dying, and begged them to call an ambulance before I lost consciousness (which they did, although I never completely lost consciousness). What was it? Well, apparently, it's possible to hyperventilate and not know you are doing it. Who knew, right?? You just breathe "funny" and it causes the O2/CO2 levels to become slightly wrong in your bloodstream.. you start to feel weird.. and at that point if you get scared, you hyperventilte in a more "obvious" way and there you have it. Often this can turn into a full blown anxiety attack where you are just terrified for no apparent reason.

It doesn't sound like you're at that point right now but if you're feeling physical symptoms PLEASE know that this could be happening.

Also... if this even STARTS to happen to you, get a paper bag, put it over your mouth, plug your nose, and breathe very slowly with the bag over your mouth. Sounds like something out of an old sit-com but it works (in fact it's what the hospital had me do when I got to the ER).

Might be worth seeing a doctor about some anti-depressants and/or anti-anxiety medications to help you through the toughest parts of this, too.

Next steps:
- Eat right, as best you can. If all you can stomach is a protein shake, at least drink those.

- Look for support - friends, family. People you can rely on emotionally, as well as people to just hang out and have fun and forget about things with.

The rest will come in time, but start with those, OK??