Meredith..your 5 years continuned.

[cagzmom]

Oh yes and Pam - in regards to this weekend. This one is easy cause he isn't around.

Softball season is approaching, but I think I have about 3 weeks until games (which is when he will show up). I have to get through next Thursday (d11 has a play) then Friday he picks her up...Sunday he brings her back. I DONT know how to not have contact with him.

I was thinking that d11 needs to have her bag like totally packed so when he gets here we have already given our love good-bye hug. Then on Sunday a quick open door and then back to what I was doing. Maybe a phone call that I will have to be on at hte point he brings her or something. Dont know.

All I do know is for at least 30 days I need to NOT have contact (eye) with him. I need to NOT have conversation with him. NONE. He gets under my skin and it peirces my heart. (he says little subtle things.) Enough to let me know that he is done and enough to know that he is confused.... I believe it is called hmmmm I dont know.