Just an interesting aside. H and I have been very reserved with regards to expressing anger or any intense emotions. Even my DB coach has said that (she believes) my chances are slim (as in she does not believe he will be one to return) once he leaves. I am at a point now where expressing that passion is just fine with me. I do not believe I can damage anything.
As Jack said, I just need to be rational and not out of control. I think my being in such control is showing H that I am still clinging (and after all he doesn't want me to have false, or perhaps any, hope). I am not. I do not fear his leaving. I do not fear life without him. I do and will miss him though. He is an amazing man. It has been my honor to be his wife. I am sad for our D's.
All that being said, I will breathe before I speak, when I am angry. Then I will speak it anyway. I have been to full of sh!t for too long. He is not more worthy than I am.
