I am so confused, not sure what hand I am playing

[Snow White]

I know you are in a fog and I hope that whatever decision you make that it turns out for you.

It is hard for anyone to offer advice on some of this stuff since I know my H and I have a hard time reading.

He sent me a text tonight saying he might go out with his best friend after work. Heres the sitch, this is either great progress and he is trying or it not and who can tell. In the last 12 years if my H was going to stop at the bar on the way home from work I wouldn;t hear boo from him all day then I would be waiting for him to come home and he wouldn't answer the phone. So that he let me know 5 hours ahead that he might go out for a few after work is a good sign, separate of everything else.

I guess the flip side would be, come on! You haven't hardly been able to speak all week can you throw me a bone here and give me some companionship instead of your buddy? Don't you know we are struggling??? I mean he was just out till all hours of the night Sunday following a hockey game. Are you taking advantage of my efforts to get along?