TRYING to enjoy the quietness

[kissak]

I am trying to enjoy the quietness....everything is so quiet now that it is weird to me. No drama, no nothing. I dont know what to think....basically the only time I have talked to my H all week is in the mornings when he calls to talk to the kids. He always asks to talk to me....why? I have no idea, because he doenst say much...I will talk and say stuff, he listens. I dont know if he thinks he is doing me a favor by gracing me with his voice or what!! Like, this morning I had mentioned that my plans had gotten cancelled for tomorrow night. He knew I had a small party to go to and that is why he was keeping the kids for me.....You know what he said? "sorry". Thats it. Nothing else....just "sorry"...No why, how come, what happend, nothing. That is what it has been like for a while now. I get nothing. No feed back on anything I say. I dontknow if it was always like that, or that Im just seeing it now. I did ask him if he was doing ok and he said "yeah, Im doing ok". He really didnt say much and I talked about quite a few things....finally I did ask if something was wrong...he said no. Of course he would say no....he doesnt tell me much of anything anymore....

I am having a hard time, I feel like he has forgotten me. I know he hasnt, but I feel like he has.....I cant help but think he sits and texts OW all the time.

UGH! oK stop me please..>I am trying my best to not go there!! Trying to stay hopeful....

Going to take my kids out tonight! Have a little fun. DO a little shopping.