Well, last night I decided that I DO want a new dream and new hope.
Cagzmom! I am sooooo happy to read this! We will help you get there (Mer, Bets, IMP, don't mind me..I'm just speaking for all of you good folks!) Like Betsey said, just take this one small bite at a time.
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I also wrote down all the reasons why H is not good for me..as it seems as though I conviently forget those things. It IS NOT a list of how BAD he is..it is truth.
This is good, too. It sounds as if you were being rational and not writing this out of anger. You need to be able to truly see him and your R without the rose colored glasses. Good for you for being able to wrap your mind around this.
You're right, you CAN do the noncontact thing for the next month. We will take this in small steps too. Let's just start with the weekend. Got any good plans?
You know what my first thought this morning was? I am being totally honest here: "I'm still alive. Yesterday came and went and I am still here...I didn't die. I need to tell this to Cagzmom!"
Yep. Yesterday sucked. Today is a new day. I plan to make the most of it.
