Treese, They avoid us because they feel guilty. When I asked my H a while ago why he suddenly felt uncomfortable leaning on me or touching me while we watched TV, he said it was because he felt such self-loathing for what he'd done.
I wanted to say ok, well then stop doing it, but now that he's come out with IDLYA and has stopped "living a lie," he wants to live "truly." It feels untrue for him to be affectionate or sexual with me because he doesn't have the love feelings that go along with it. Would I call this OVERTHINKING things just a teeny bit? YES! But that's my H for you.
We are one of the mirrors that they can't look in or they will see themselves. (Do I sound like a MLC pro or what? Grace--don't I?)
Me/X-H: 47/48 T 19 yrs M 16 years D14 D10 ILYBINILWY: 10/07 H moved out 6/08