Treese,
They avoid us because they feel guilty. When I asked my H a while ago why he suddenly felt uncomfortable leaning on me or touching me while we watched TV, he said it was because he felt such self-loathing for what he'd done.

I wanted to say ok, well then stop doing it, but now that he's come out with IDLYA and has stopped "living a lie," he wants to live "truly." It feels untrue for him to be affectionate or sexual with me because he doesn't have the love feelings that go along with it. Would I call this OVERTHINKING things just a teeny bit? YES! But that's my H for you.

We are one of the mirrors that they can't look in or they will see themselves. (Do I sound like a MLC pro or what? Grace--don't I?)


Me/X-H: 47/48
T 19 yrs
M 16 years
D14
D10
ILYBINILWY: 10/07
H moved out 6/08